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You
YOU matter and your experience matters. Suicide loss and grief can feel consuming at times and it’s easy to forget the person you were before. It is okay to change your opinions or lifestyle after something huge happens in your life, don’t feel guilty for spending time working on yourself.
Yearning
You might find yourself missing your old life and yearning for a normality without grief and that's okay! It's really hard to accept changes to our life which are entirely out of our control. Making plans for the future can help redirect your yearning for the past into hope for the future. As with all feelings, let yourself sit for them for as long as you need.
Years
As the years go on it's totally normal that we change as individuals and with that, our grief and emotions change too. The further we get from the moment we lost someone to suicide the more conflicting it can feel; as the years go on the pain will mellow but it can also feel scary to move on with our lives because it means we’re becoming more distant to what happened and the person we lost. Read other’s lived experience stories to help understand your own experience and try writing down how you feel as the years pass, it can help you process your feelings.