Submission 182

Dad

There’s not a day that goes by where I don’t think of you. Almost four years since you lost your battle and I still search for you in the supermarket and file through the memories etched in my brain. I can’t escape the gut wrenching feeling of missing you. I can physically feel my heartstrings tug when I think of what I’ll achieve without you there to watch me. I look for you in the ocean and the stars, but mostly I look for you in me. We are so similar and I just know how proud you are of me. I have your strength and magic. I miss you so much it hurts. I’m sorry you thought suicide was your only option. If I had known, I would have taken your pain and worn it myself. I love you dad. Forever.