Submission 239

To my handsome love,

It's been five years, Joaquin is now 9 and Iséla is 7. They were 4 and 2 when you ended your life. As I watch our baby boy grow, he is hitting the age where he needs his dad to help him navigate through the boy/manly stuff

My memory always wanders back to the conversation we had at our old house sitting on our couch. We were talking about your broken relationship with your own dad.

You looked at Joaquin, touched his hair and said that every boy needs his dad. I'm always going to be here for him.

Dammit Nick.

I'm angry today..angry that you didn't keep your promise.

Joaquin needs you.

I need you and our princess needs her dad too

Today, I'm angry.