Submission 242

Dear Dad,

Nothing is the same since you left us. There is a void that cannot be filled, and the world has changed.
I’m sorry you suffered for 2 years, you became a shell of the funny, charismatic Dad we once knew. It was nothing short of heartbreaking to watch you fall deeper into the darkness ,despite your efforts to get well again. You really did try, and I know that.

I want you to know I’m not angry, I understand you could no longer take the thoughts, and the torment of your mind, but the day you chose to end your pain, ours truly began. There is no pain like it.
Nothing can ever take away what a brilliant Dad you have been, the irony is not lost on me that now, as I struggle to navigate my grief you would have been the person I would turn to for words of encouragement, I miss you.

I still text you, sending you updates on the kids and just to tell you I love you. I probably always will. You always joked I would take care of you as you got older, what a privilege that would have been.
Thank you for all you done for us, I’m proud to be your daughter. Despite the heartache, I feel so lucky to have had you for 33 years, you are and always will be the best of the best.
Forever your Jade girl x