Submission 118

Dear Arthur,

I have hated every day since you left. Anything I hold in my hand I want to throw across the room. I cannot register the fact you are no longer alive. I miss hugs. I miss being a big sister to you.

I am so sorry for your pain and I wish more than anything I could have helped you better. I am so sorry things happened the way they did. You deserved a kinder, gentler world to exist in. I hope you have found it but i’m devastated it’s not with me. You are in my thoughts every day and I never want you to leave them—even though it hurts to think of you. It’s sharp initially when I remember, and then a heavy and deep ache the rest of the time.

You are an amazing person and I wish you knew you that when you died. You’re my brother forever. I’ll see you soon. I’m going to try and make things a bit better down here on earth. Wait for me?

Your drilla,

Evie