Submission 126

To my Luke,

Its been over two years but my heart aches the same. I keep looking for answers and can never seem to find them, I can only hope that you are at peace. I wish that one day I learn to understand why you did this but for now I take comfort in thinking you just fell asleep. I hope you are at peace, I hope heaven is everything you ever dreamed off. I have so much to tell you, I wish I could just have one last conversation. I had a baby, she is amazing I’m convinced you sent her to me, she is everything I ever dreamed off and she has saved me from letting the grief take over.

I have a new house and a new job, I’m really trying to turn everything around, I still drink your coffee and listen to your rubbish songs, some things never change. I notice the little signs you send and they bring me comfort. I always drive past our old flat it makes me smile I’ll cherish the memories, I just wish you gave yourself a chance, you were destined for so much more, your whole life ahead of you. I promise to carry you with me every day of my life and I hope one day we can finish our journey together but in a better place. I love you always.