Submission 154

Dearest Tommy

I look for you everyday. In every bird I see. In every phase of the moon that passes. I wait for a sign from you. For your voice to ring in my ear. For you to walk through my door. The world seems to be moving but I am stationary. I hear laughter around me but I scream silently in my head. Will I ever be happy again? I miss you with every fibre of my being. I love you unconditionally. How can you be gone? I move through life only to see you again.

The day you left me was the day my heart slowed down and changed to a whimper. I am still here but I am a shadow of myself. Your nephew recognises pictures of you and cuddles them. He has started walking now and chats so much. He is the very image of you. I would give anything for a day with you. One last day. One last coffee together. One last hug. One last walk. One last giggle. One last van ride. One last trip to Nans to hear the same story for the 100th time. I still can't believe you're gone. I wish I was there for you more. I wish... oh how I wish you were still here. Please please stay. Don't leave us. I Love you to the stars. My Dearest Starman.