Submission 25

To my Husband,

If I could just have our last moments together I'd change them and I'd tell you how much I love you, how much it would hurt if you left me but unfortunately that wasn't our destiny… we hadn't spoken for a few weeks until that night you messaged me and told me you loved me and our daughter, I didn't reply because I was so mad with you, if only I knew that that's the last text I'd ever receive from you. Id of messaged you back…

I miss you so much, some days I can't breathe with the pain and other days I surprise myself . The days are getting better and the bad days a fewer than they were but my heart is fractured, I constantly feel an emptiness.. its coming up to your 1st anniversary and I've sat and thought about it a lot. Should I do something to remember or should I just hide away.

Nearly a whole year, I'm trying to be positive and see it as not a year without you but a year closer to seeing you again.. I love you so much and always will xx