Submission 54

Dad,

Firstly, I miss you each and everyday.

I hate the fact you have missed out on seeing me get married, get divorced and have 2 beautiful girls. We talk about you everyday - even though you never met them.

I talk as if you were here, Grandad would have loved this, Grandad would be so proud of you. I am sad for my children, who have missed out on a grandparent.

I thought everything was ok, no signs no alarms. I don't need to know why, I just hope you're at peace. I cant lie, my whole life has been effected your actions. I find it hard to trust. I always worry about people and I'm very scared of losing someone again.

I miss you and miss the memories we could have made. You were the best dad, I'm not angry with what you did. 20 Years on, i just feel sad and sad for my mum who was left behind too. Without rhyme or reason and what I would give to sit and talk to you for 5 mins and tell you how much I love you and that you were the best dad ever.