Submission 58

To Matt,

Quite simply I miss you. Our chats. The laughs. I would give anything for that last hug again.

I didn't know. I never guessed. The pain was physical when I heard the news but obviously nothing like the pain you felt being on this earth. I am so sorry that you felt that this was the only way.

I hope Sean (another friend I lost the same way) and you are up there having a pint together and healing together. You are both so terribly missed. It was your birthday yesterday and before raising a glass to you I went to the lake. I asked for a sign you were ok and a flock of ducks flew low above my head and landed on the water in front of me. You were home. I had my sign.

Then I saw this opportunity to write a letter today. A year on I feel I have some closure sent by you.