Submission 121

Dear Flynn,

I miss you. In everything I do, I miss you.

I will never understand why you chose to go, if you fully understood what you were doing. You were so young. It’s been a year, and I’m still trying to come to terms with the fact that you’re gone forever. I didn’t realise how much I needed you; that you were part of my identity. I am your big sister, and I do not know how to be that without you next to me. It was supposed to be me and you against the world.

There are so many things I wish I had told you, and I hope you know that you were so deeply loved. Our childhood together will forever be the happiest experience of my life. I know you didn’t get to finish yours, but I need you to know that who I am is because of those times we spent together. Your life and your death have moved me so much.

I spend all my time holding on to our memories, because I am terrified for the day when talking about you feels like a past life. You were so incredibly funny, talented, and wholesome. You are the most genuine person I know. You taught me how to belly laugh, and muck around because that is what life is supposed to be about. There is nothing I wouldn’t give to hear your laugh again, it was infectious.

I need you to know that I love you more than you ever realised, and that I will always be your big sister no matter where you are.

I'll give Mum and Dad a hug for you. See you someday.

Love,
Morgan x