Submission 122

Dearest husband,

I still can't believe you're gone, it’s been nearly 3 years.
You suffered so much during our 17 years together, but I never thought we'd lose you to suicide.

It was the biggest shock and hardest thing me and the children have ever had to endure, it changed us, maybe forever.

For a long time I was angry with you for passing your pain onto us. I didn't understand why we weren't worth living for. I will probably never understand and thats obviously a good thing.
But none of this was your fault, you didn't choose to feel so much pain and life was pointless. We forgive you. We love you and miss you always, and we'll do our best in life to make you proud of us.

You'll never be forgotten by us or so many others who's life you touched with your caring, generous and creative personality.

S x