Submission 15

My Son,

I lost my youngest son to suicide, 27th August 2016. When the country was celebrating August Bank Holiday we as a family were grieving the death of my son. He had just turned 30yrs old, July 27th 2016. He was living with us as he split from long term partner and mother of his 2 children, girl Ashlee she was 5yrs old and his son Vinny he was 3yrs old. He had them every weekend. He was a good dad. He was a good son. But always felt he was letting people down, and his ex partner was saying he was a waste of space and everyone would be better off without him when they argued. So he would then go out drinking and get into trouble. In March 2016 he tried to take his life but was unsuccessful that time. So for a few months we was just waiting for the phone call. He seemed to be getting better and was thinking positive. But on that morning in August his dad went into garage and found him. He hand hung himself. The guilt that we had was horrendous as we thought we had let him down as parents and knowing that we were upstairs asleep while your child is in a state of no return is terrible. There is so much more to this story, too much to write. Just writing this helps a little. A piece of me went with my son Chris that day. It will be 6yrs this August feels like yesterday and I have cried every day since.

Thank you for reading.

Lynne