Submission 187

Chaz,

It’s been 10 months since you left us. Since I lost my little brother.. Since the world lost one of the sweetest souls. Some days I think I’ve lost the sound of your voice, and my world comes crumbling. Other days, I see you in the rain that falls on a sunny evening. The days go by and time feels lost. Some days I can tolerate, other days I feel that I can’t breath or comprehend that I’ve truly lost you, or anything that happened in that night.. that I’m drowning.
I hope so badly every day that you’re no longer struggling. That whatever is after this, is everything you hoped it would be. I look for you in every person I meet, every coincidence that hits me, and every day that passes by. I hope to only be the best person, friend, and nurse, for you. To be somebody that could’ve been there for you to others.
I’ll love you forever and think of you daily.