Submission 225

To my brother,

Hi Matt, summer is finally over again and I can start to breathe again. I don’t think I can ever enjoy a summer again no matter how much I convince myself. I think everyone thinks I’m crazy as all I look forward to is Christmas! I’m so sorry I wasn’t there for you when you needed me the most. Sometimes I think you are here with me saying don’t be so silly. I never got to tell you how much I loved you or how you were my protector growing up. Why did we never talk about those things? I miss how full of life you always were. I miss your laugh and how you took the mickey out of everything and everyone! Why did you never give me the chance to make it up with you? The morning I found out I just remember it being the most sunniest day and I still hate that. I keep your note in the kitchen drawer and try to make sense of it daily. I know we weren’t talking but I always felt if we had just met up we would have laughed and would have all been forgiven. I hope you can forgive me. I wrote you a note which I keep on my phone and never shared with anyone but now maybe is the right time

Forever I will think of you
Until the day I get to make it right
Forever my heart will be broken
I hope you see how sorry I am
Forever I will regret
Everyday I live with the pain
Forever I will think of you
Not just a brother but also my protector
Forever I will love you