Submission 69
My Darling Brother,
It's been 2 years and 4 months since you departed.
It’s always been you and me, brother and sister .....and the world. We always had each other. Our sibling bond connected us no matter where we were or what we were doing. We were the joint keepers of our childhood memories and that’s so special. Just knowing we had each other here on earth was a constant comfort in our lives. I trusted you with my life and could always rely on you, no matter what.
You were there from the moment I was born. 46 years later you left without saying goodbye. I’ve had to learn how to live in the world as a sister without a sibling. And because of lockdown, the last time we saw each other in person was 6 months earlier.
I'm not cross with you. I'm not mad at you. I just miss you and I'm so sad that you felt you had to leave.
I know you liked to be impulsive and I guess this was your final impulsive decision. I've visited your tree many times and I have to say, you found the most beautiful little oasis in the heart of the forest to transition to the other side. Knowing your last moments were among beautiful pine trees, surrounded by a beautiful stream and precious sunshine, I hope peace came to you quickly. I really do.
You have left a wonderful legacy my darling brother. Your kindness shines through your 5 year old twin niece and nephew and they will forever be blessed by their Uncle Stu Guardian Angel always watching over them.
I know you send us messages and signs and these bring a smile, always. But I just miss you. We all do. I'm sorry I wasn't there for you in your desperate time of need. I'm so so so sorry.
I'm sorry you departed alone, but I guess that's actually what you preferred. You never liked to make a fuss about anything and I know you didn't want to cause us upset.
I know you miss mum and dad and all your friends as much as they miss you. You didn't have a choice. And we love you. We love you and miss you and we will all be together again. I promise. We just have life to live here first and when our work is done, I can't wait to see you and hear all about your new adventures.
Keep shining the brightest star in the sky Stu.
Love you lots like jelly tots!
Your little sister (although I'm now older than you!) Linzi xx
ps. Thank you for being my big brother x