Submission 172

Dear M,

I didn't know how intensively I could love a friend until you left. You broke my heart in a way that nobody else did. I know you didn't mean it and I know how much you cared about me. The fact that your pain was so much stronger than your love for me and your friends is really hard to comprehend.

I've slowly put the pieces back together, but the cracks are still there. I try to fill them in by laughing hard, by dancing like nobody's watching, by just being myself, like you always did.

Sometimes it's scary, sometimes I feel you left me the hope you couldn't handle anymore. It's a gift that I'd rather not have received in this way, but there's no other way than accepting it.