Submission 190

Dear Lauren,

I can’t crawl home to you, Lauren,
And I think that’s the worst part.
I can’t just phone you like I used to
So we can just talk things through
Why does grief have to be so hard?
You’re the only person I want,
The only person I’d turn to,
But you’re not here.
So who do I turn to, my dear?
Some nights, Lauren, You hardly cross my mind
Even though I miss you all the time.
How can that be?
There are days where you swallow me up
Encompassed by grief,
And lately, it’s felt far too much
I need you here.
How can it be so,
That one moment you’re stood next to me?
And the next, you’re gone for good.
It’s not fair is it?
No, no, no, come back to me.
I beg of you.
Even if it’s just for one more day
The things we’d do, the things I’d say.
Grief comes and goes in waves
But today it is drowning me.
More than I can even explain.